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Dear A,

It’s been 5 years since I first realized I had feelings for you. I fell so incredibly hard for you, unlike anyone I’ve ever fallen for before.

You were so charming and knew exactly the right words to say. Day in and day out you were on my mind. You made me feel so special within such a short amount of time… all for it to come crashing down.

Our situation was complicated from the start. Time never aligned, as much as I once wanted it to. You convinced me we had a connection and something special between us… but you never wanted to make that a reality.

That one kiss we shared is the one thing I got to have with you when we were in your van that night after work. I remember going inside and losing my mind over the fact we kissed. I continued to lose my mind over the countless nights we spent on the phone talking for hours about everything and anything.

What happened to those nights? Did they mean nothing to you? Did I ever mean anything to you?

Those thoughts still linger even though it’s been about a year now since we last spoke. So many times I’d picture a future with you. Every ounce in me was willing to accept and take on the challenges that others wouldn’t dare take themselves.

I was all in.

It broke me when time finally aligned for us and I had the courage to ask you out on a date. Should have been a happy moment, right? No. You looked at me with that charming smile and said yes.

Once again, lied to me right to my face. You were actively seeing someone new.

It doesn’t even end there.

You got mad at me when I finally let go of the idea of you and found someone that genuinely loves me. You wanted me, but not enough to be committed to me. That’s what it’s been all this time.

Now we’re here. I’m over you, just not over how you treated me. A big fuck you for all that you put me through. I didn’t deserve that and you didn’t deserve my love.

Have a good life,

—Anonymous