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From the Notes | November 13, 2022 at 3:52AM

how do i come to terms with the fact that you broke me in more ways than i could’ve imagined? how do i come to terms with how fucked up things got? how do i come to terms with all the trauma you’ve created for me?

i bared my all to you in good faith, only for you to use it against me knowing what i’d gone through before and what i’d inevitably go through again. i put what little trust i had in the world into you, and all you did was prove how right i was in my hesitation to begin with.

i just want a love that’s not going to hurt. to be able to go into a connection without thinking of all the possible ways you could fuck with me. i want to be able to look into your eyes and see the beginning, not the end.