*Featured in when drifting, she dreams

every time i wake up and i don’t see your name on my screen, my heart sinks. i can feel each crack as the weight of the pain i feel crushes it whole. the hours and days grow longer, and my heart becomes weaker the more you carry out this uncomfortable silence between us. a truth remains unspoken and words remain unexchanged. conversations are left for the mind to conjure, and tender apologies that come with sweet forgiveness are simply left unsaid. my eyes feel heavier with every tear shed and every hour of sleep lost. god, i miss you so much it drives me insane. i should have never taken my time with you for granted, because i didn’t know the emotions that would creep up on me within that time. i feel like i’ve spent years without you, when it’s only been days that have passed. those days filled with deafening silence has created an unbearable void that i so desperately wish you’d fill. you’ve given me a lot to think about in your absence and has made my mind assume things about you, that my heart doesn’t want to believe. come back and prove me wrong because darling, i didn’t know you’d mean this much to me until your silence replaced our conversation.