i asked the universe to teach me how to love and it answered with a powerful force of emotions, all directed towards one person; a boy whose very existence changed everything. suddenly, i’m unable to think unless he is every thought. i’m unable to write unless he is the muse. i’m unable to speak unless his name is the thing that makes sweet love to my lips.

in confusion and denial, i cried out to the universe to explain to me how i can feel for this boy, how i can love this boy, with any tangible emotion i have. the universe answered by saying, “love him with every ounce of love those before him did not show you, and feel for him the same way you felt for those before him.”